Current mood:

depressed

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LiFe:
"Why is a relationship so hard????Because being alone is the only thing Harder..."
Last night I heard this said and i was like this is so true....I dont understand why but it is....HELP ME.. I hate myself and my life so much....Maybe its time to go...Just to go and move...Maybe they were right in trying to send me somewhere else...New start on things and new things....

WoRk:
Work is going and im trying to keep on the bright side...but honestly i just dont feel like doing much of anything anymore..fuck it...Nothing is every going to go good for me or even if it does it was meant to fail...Fuck what cant it just b right????

SKooL:
Skools going ok i guess...but yet i hate it so much and i fucking hate the fact that so many people put labels on you...Fucking labels...So all of a sudden im a fucking Prep because i wear A&F and Shop at Hollister and like other things...fuck I hate the fact...grrr... it gets me mad how then they call me white or anything...so its like ok i guess im white..or even look at it...fuck .....grrr....I guess that i get label...maybe i just need to go to La serna with all the other white people and where they wont actuall treat me like shit...fuck....I think they were right about me changing skools this year and i kinda regret it so bad right now...maybe i should because my finals are done this week and i can just go into a new skool with a new outlook.........

My THouGHTs
I guess that im just hurting so bad and trying to hold on to something that i thought was meant to be but the other person hurt me so bad...I guess my words and my heart mean nothing and I was meant to fail on all levels...Yet it hurts more just thinking back on the whole weekend and the whole time i was there.....Nothing but lies to me....my feels meant nothing and everything was meant to fall...fuck cant i just take things back and try it over again....I guess they didnt love me the same way that i loved them.....It was the 1st time that ive ever loved anyone.......FUCK>>>>>just kill me now....let me have some happiness....Just fix everything and me have some happiness..I just cant take things right now...I just want to stop and cry...No looking back and hey if it happens then no regerts and just live like theres no tomorrow...because N my mind there is no tomorrow...just live for today.....

P>S.
HereS a New PIX

Im out for Now
Later dayz