Current mood:	blank
Current music:	Yellowcard-Only One

Its been a while since ive gotten the chance to update my journal...I guess with the crazyness in my life its been pretty hard...I just cant figure out whats going on one minute im here and the next (wow) somethings changed so fast..Currently Im working at a camp where I get I chance to a make difference in the lives of younger kids..Some old too.. Stress factor always comes into play with me..I guess with busy lifestyle I Have i work so hard to keep myself together..Next years gonna be a big change..My brothers are off the college soon my sis now gonna be in 2nd grade..Me just 2 years left and im off..(Thinking about whats next for me in the crazy mixed up world..Hoping that I get somewhere in life and Im not just some punk ass kid who doesnt do shit with his life...)SkooLs gonna start soon and I dont even know what skool im going to go to...My mom hasnt made up her mind between the school..Idunno I want to go back to erhs..BUt maybe change would b a good thing..I just think its gonna b hella hard..Next weeks my last of camp and then im done home for the rest of the summer..Which to me feels like it keeps getting shorter and shorter..Damn pretty soon well have no summer (at the rate there going)...Ive been listening to a lot more music now..Its been helping me out..Idunno just sitting there and thinking getting it all out in the open helps me out a lot..I guess you can say im just some kid with no sense of direction for his life..You know what..THats no lie..I wish I knew what i wanted to do...Time keeps ticking by faster and faster..I just know one thing for sure...College is in my future and its gonna be something that Im gonna do...I have to get going now..SO i leave you with a song...
"Vindicated"

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
---Dashboard Confessional

IM out for now..
Later dayz